25 April 2007

spc: body parts (4) uproot

(bamboo, Hawaii ©cheeky)

Still resonating with me is the prompt from this weeks Sunday Scribblings, Rooted.

I took this photo earlier in the week and I decided to use it for this weeks SPC. My hand is holding on to a really tall shoot of bamboo. There was this cluster of amazingly tall bamboo shoots that stood out so I grabbed hold. As I looked at the photo again, I couldn’t help but think about what that bamboo represents and I came back to the meaning of rooted.

While I am deeply rooted in my hometown, and have strong ties, I realize it is the emotional feed I cling to so dearly. I am about to move, not house, but country. A new journey begins. It’s all about timing and I recognize the emotional roots come from a sense of security, the security from familiarity, family and friends. I worry that I won’t develop these roots and have that security, and I want that security badly; I need it. I want it to be waiting for me when I arrive, even though I know this idea is complete foolishness and fantasy, all this worry from the girl who loves a new adventure. I have had to face the fact that change is harder for me than I want to admit, and I don’t like that. It makes me feel, inadequate in some strange way.

I will have to say goodbye to comfort and familiarity and all of my friends and family, but I know it’s not forever. We will still be connected even though a huge distance will separate us. It will only be a separation of geography. Even though I have worry, I know I will make new friends, create new memories and in time I will view my new home as comfortable and familiar. I will because I believe.


susanna said...

Oh my gosh, this post mirrors how I was feeling before moving to the States from Canada. It IS exciting AND scary to move away from family and friends. I was homesick for the first while but you WILL meet people. Don't give up, just keep putting yourself out there and you'll make new friends. Plus you have email which makes keeping in touch with family and old friends easy.
Also, think of it this way...you're adding an interesting chapter to your life's story. :)

Michelle | Bleeding Espresso said...

You've hit on stuff I've felt as well; I love, love, love (and need) security and yet long for adventure too...it's the dichotomy that keeps life interesting, isn't it? I'm so excited for you!

Erin said...

An adventure for sure! It's good to know that not even geography can break the ties of family and friends. The heart is stronger than distance. I'll pray for an easy transition for you!

Louise said...

Hope all goes well for you in your move!! You'll meet so many great new people and have a great adventure and new experiences!!and thank goodness for technology, keeping in touch long distance is much easier these days!!
Have a great day!

Jone said...

Putting roots down is scary. I left California at 17 and have lived in the PNW for 2/3 of my life.
Here's the post about yourlovely journal:http://deowriter.blogspot.com/2007/04/napowrimo-day-27-carnelian-journal.html